2020 in Review
At the beginning of 2020, I was very excited for the year I had laid out. I already had six months of booked acting work around the country, I was taking meetings with industry reps I was passionate about, and I was scraping out a living in my favorite city surrounded by people I adored. At the time I would have complained about my stress levels or how much sleep I wasn't getting, but life was good. Plans were moving along as expected and I was confident at least most of my ambitions for the year would be achieved. We all know what happened next...
It's funny looking back at my 2020 New Year's Resolutions now. My resolutions were these lofty goals like "join an acting union," "sign with this agency,"make x amount of money from acting gigs," "get hired by so-and-so for such-and-such project," etc. In January 2020, I had very good reason to believe I would reach most of those milestones. Yet reviewing them now, I realize my 2020 New Year's Resolutions were all aspirations I had little to no control over. For example, no matter how talented or worthy I might be, I can't control whether or nor a manager has a spot for me on their roster. Likewise, so-and-so might want to hire me for such-and-such project but I can't control if their boss wants to hire someone else. While I definitely applaud my former self for being so focused and clear about what she wanted, this year I am making career resolutions I do have control over.
So without further ado, here are a few of my 2021 New Year's Resolutions:
- learn to play the guitar
- write, direct, and produce a short film
- attend a film festival
- actually use my instagram
- double the amount of auditions I submit for voice overs
- watch an episode of every new show that comes out of pilot season
- continue to meet artists that inspire me
- collaborate on a project with a friend
- discover a Shakespeare role I want to play in the future
Even though I didn't achieve most of my 2020 New Year's Resolutions, I am still incredibly proud of what I've accomplished this year. Never did I expect to work alongside Broadway actors in a virtual reading of The Tempest but it happened. Additionally, I got to take class with industry idols of mine that otherwise wouldn't have had time in their schedules to answer questions from someone like me. I grew closer with many incredible mentors and reconnected with old colleagues and friends. None of this was part of my plan for the year and none of these accomplishments furthered my 2020 New Year's Resolutions in any obvious away. However, I'm a better actor because they happened and couldn't be more grateful for what I've learned from these experiences.
Of course I still want to achieve all of those lofty goals I set for myself in 2020. But that's all they are: goals. They aren't going anywhere and I'll reach them when I reach them. In the meantime, I'm focusing my attention on the elements of my career I alone can progress. I want 2021 to be the year of controlling what I can and trusting that through hard work, the rest will happen. Check back with me this time 2022 for a progress report and above all else, have a Happy New Year!